a place for me to check in...

i have been a writer all my life, and keeping a journal has keep me sane in the toughest of times. 


i’ve been writing in an online blog on and off since middle school and even this one has gone through several face-lifts over the years. every year i tell myself i will write one blog post a month, but i am consistently failing miserably.


but maybe, just maybe, i’ll work it out soon enough…


– nilanda, xo

Latest Post

why does my brain do this to me

I haven’t been feeling my best this week… I’ve felt okay in spurts of time, but sometimes I’m not sure if I actually felt okay or if I made myself act a little over the top in...

Past Posts

as the years increase, so does my gratitude

I closed out January by spending last weekend in New York to celebrate my birthday. I turned 31, and sometimes I’m still shocked. How can I be 31 when I still don’t know a damn thing about...

2024: will this year be different?

It’s time for my annual New Year’s post here where I talk about how this year will be the one where I post at least once a month, I mean it. All jokes aside, I want to take the time to...

2023: “New” Me; Turning 30

Why is it always so easy to write a blog at the beginning of the year but not throughout? So much has happened since the last time I posted here… I went to Korea for 3 months! It was the best...

May I Finally Feel the Sun

I’m a little late on the May blog, but I’m determined to make at least 12 posts on here this year! I think I say this every year, but I’m amazed at how quickly time passes. How is it...

A Full Heart of April Vacation(s)

Wow, wow, wow! April absolutely flew by with something going on every week. I worked on DIY projects, freelance shoots, saw one of my brothers for the first time in 3 years, and got to meet his baby...

March-ing Into The Next Chapter

I like writing blogs here as a monthly check in. I try to check in with myself weekly in my journal too, but it isn’t always easy to “reflect” on things when you’re still experiencing them. My vision...

A Slump Before Spring

My goal this year is to write at least one blog post every month… I get a pass for this one because February only has 28 days right? I went through a slump for a couple weeks where I had little...

Back to Bloggin,’ Baby!

Wowwieee! It’s been quite a long time since I’ve written here. I find it very amusing that my last post was written just as the COVID-19 pandemic was getting started. Here I am now, over a...

When Everything is Different (COVID-19)

Maybe one day I’ll be able to start my posts without referring to how long it’s been since I’ve last written… However, today is not that day. It’s been almost two months since I’ve written...