My goal this year is to write at least one blog post every month… I get a pass for this one because February only has 28 days right?
I went through a slump for a couple weeks where I had little motivation to do anything “productive.” I wasn’t working out, meal planning, or making videos. I even missed a Korean class by accident. The combination of overthinking in my personal life, the anxiety of not having work lined up (my current position’s contract ends this week), and general existential crisis of what is my purpose? and where is my value? really took over my mental state. It’s all still there, but I’m handling it better. I took those two weeks to be in my feelings, indulge in doing nothing, and continue despite the lingering feelings of guilt.
With March around the corner I started working on my latest bullet journal spread. It was the little spark I needed to start getting back on track. As I looked over the whole month and started thinking ahead of events and appointments, I remembered I’d have more free time because of my work situation, and it excited me more than scared me (as it had throughout the majority of February).
I’ll be applying to jobs while potentially doing a little freelance work and working on my own content too. But I feel like I have another blank canvas in front of me to shape the next part of my life. I don’t know what it looks like exactly yet, but I believe in myself and I believe in the universe.